Saturday, May 28, 2011

Need to decompress

WTF-what a sh*ty week-probably the most stressful non health related week I have had in some time and that just can't happen. Some curve balls pitched at work that took one hell of a dance to survive, even for the short term and what irritates me the most, it is all completely unnecessary bullsht with someone trying to play hard ball and change the game-it simply isn't worth it when my health cant be compromised by this crap but presents and interesting and challenging situation going forward-I need to decompress and restrategize as this broad wants blood-MINE-and I'm just not wired for these tactics she wants to play anymore, nor should I be as she simply on a power play that no matter how I look at it, makes zero business sense for any of us but I have to let it go for now.

I got the immediate situation solved for the short term and need to chill out-I can feel the strain on my system and not happy about that at all-insomnia as the brain wont stop rehashing the meeting, rehearsing the next one and churning out strategies as to how to make my next move, sore throat that wont go away that not sure what to attribute too and general stress BAD JEFF.-you know better than to let anyone or any situation get the best of you anymore's tough considering the consequences on the business and financial front. Regardless my health needs to take precedence.

Fortunately I am extremely fortunate as what better way to accomplish a complete decompress but to turn the phone off and get on a boat, or ship n this case-I'll be missing the 3 day race back home and wish my Prima crew the best, but I'll let others do the heavy lifting on this one as I sit here in Seattle awaiting the shuttle to Pier 91 for a week blobbing around Alaska with Lisa as she takes her son Max for his first fcruise or his 13th birthday and I get to tag along-thanks Lucy! Maybe we'll find a bear to wrestle-have to be a better gig thatn last weeks battle-LOL

Ill possibly detail all this later-just a journal entry here to try clear the brain but god knows I need this week!

Have a great Memorial Day weekend all

Wednesday, May 11, 2011


Sometimes I wonder why I bother-read enough on the web will and you'll scare the sh*t out of yourself as it is a miracle any of us have the ability to survive the day! Apparently though, this really isn't that big a deal as the Doc told me and the meds don't seem to have any major side effects so maybe much of what I thought was just part of my life today is really directly associated with this thyroid issue.

  • Muscle and joint soreness-figured part of the healing, rebuilding and post radiation

  • Fatigue-same answer however have noticed my 2 pm slump bad

  • Weight gain-well the first 10 pounds to 190 was great although it took months-this second 10 to 195-200 I mentioned-it did come fast

  • Irritability-We'll Ive certainly mentioned that countless times since this all started
The list goes on when you look at the symptoms so maybe she is correct when she tells me that I may feel good now relative to this time last year, but what if I could feel even better as these could all be cases of this irregularity so time will tell-I'll keep you posted!

Of course trying to have me remember a daily dose of anything could prove to be the biggest challenge-hell I tend to forget my bi-monthly Humira shot so a daily pill............should be interesting~ Stay tuned

Tuesday, May 10, 2011

Thyroid? This is a new development-Uuggh

"Although thyroid problems are common in survivors who had radiation to the head and neck, treatment is generally easy and effective."

REALLY? Easy and effective for whom?

My bi-monthly follow up with the ENT wasn't as smooth as I had hoped this afternoon-she lobbed a curve ball my way and although she says it's no big deal-I happen to disagree. No not life threatening and in the overall scheme of things, we'll deal with it, but disappointing none the less as well as a hell of a shock as the first I have ever heard of this potential "common" side effect is NOW? And I in fact do have damage that needs treatment? WONDERFUL! I was informed about the salivary issues but never once any mention of thyroid damage but here we are. Don't have all the details and will be on Google here quite shortly believe me but apparently, my last blood test showed "radiation damage to the thyroid causing high levels of......? " My numbers are 8.5 and 4's to 5's is the normal range so she going to put me on meds to regulate. She'll prescribe Synthroid I believe she said and check the levels next month to see if the dose is correct. WOW!

I know nothing-never had any thyroid issues, not even sure what the damn thing does except it's now busted! Others in the family have to deal with this and I know that like blood pressure meds-once you start, you can never leave...........Grrrrr-time to research-I'll be back